Week 1: Noticing

Beating an addiction is a huge thing, and yet it's really nothing at all. It's as much what you don't do as what you do. 

You and me, we're done

Before I stopped drinking alcohol, I couldn't imagine a world without it; or rather, the world I imagined without it didn't add up in my head. I feel the same about sugar. I can't imagine not craving it. I can't conceive of how things will be when it isn't a huge part of my life. 

But I'm going to try, and my fucking lovely, delightful friend Kath is too. We're both going to blog about it, because that's what works, for me. 

Our first week, until May 1st, is all about noticing. Whether or not we eat sugar is by the by. This is the first part of the process... noticing the attachment to it. Logging where it rears up or just peeks an eyebrow over the wall of our consciousness. 

There is another way

Today, without the pressure of not being 'allowed' any sugar, I made it through the day with almost none - just a little honey in my tea...Then I talked to Kath and we laughed and bandied vegetables about and I went home and filled my face with pure white sugar - icing, no less, and a brownie cake mix. And both those states are fine. 

What I noticed: I felt better during the day. I face-filled off a bag of tomatoes. I ate avocado-sweetpotato-onion-flavoured mush for lunch (Very Fine). I drank tea and water. After the brownies, a thing sits in my stomach. My head is heavier and my energy more sluggish. Good to know.